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All in depresion and anxiety
How is this fair!! At the moment, he knows more about what is happening than me. He was in court with his lawyer; he was told what was going on. I received a call the victim crisis team, after the event explaining that it had been postponed, but they didn’t know why.
‘How contrasting’, I thought, to the day that Twat Face was experiencing. From what I have heard, they have now informed their children, (the children are in their fifties, and they didn’t tell them until after Christmas as they didn’t want to spoil it… bless) and they had the humiliating prospect of standing in court. They will have been dreading this as long as I have been willing it to come. They will want it behind them as much as me, but for very different reasons I should think. I want to begin a new life, a happy life without ‘The Shadow’, my dark secret that follows me everywhere, even across the seas.
Hobbies are important to your well being. It is important to take some time out to do something that you enjoy. Do something that is for you, and not for someone else. Whatever it is, if you enjoy it, do it. It gives you purpose and a reason; it can be therapeutic, distracting and satisfying. The first I have is photography, something that I can’t believe took me so long to find, and the second is knitting, which I found years before I thought I would.
If someone were to mention that ‘Sophie’s Choice’ was on, she would declare her disinterest, stating that she had lived it, so didn’t need to watch it. I never understood her reluctance until this trip.
We spent a day visiting the concentration camps of Auschwitz, and Auschwitz, Birkenau. If you haven’t been, I highly recommend it. It’s certainly not Disney Land, it isn’t happy, there are no birds singing, but it reminds you of the cruelty that humans are capable of.
Is it wrong to feel excited about feeling sad? I’m not sure, but people who have suffered with depression may understand what I mean when I talk about the inability to feel for a long time. The empty feeling, the heaviness due to not feeling anything is just as painful as ‘real’ pain.
The community are shattered by this; you have destroyed the trust of so many people. You have spent the years trading pleasantries with my parents, despite me asking you many years ago to not speak to them. You didn’t deserve people so good in your life, and they didn’t deserve the person that made it so difficult for me to be in theirs.
The less I do, the less I want to do, the less I want to do, the less I do. I feel like my brain is slowly stopping, and I can’t do anything about it. When depression comes, every time, there is a steady decline in the ability to conceive of doing anything that requires physical or mental assertion.
